August 31, 2017
1 year, 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days, 525,600 minutes. This is how long it’s been since my life turned upside down and it only took 60 seconds for it to change. August 31, 2017 will forever and always be such an important date in my life. On this day a year ago I went through a new experience – I was separated from a job that I thought I would make into a career one day, a job I grew to love and thought I was really good at.
However, sometimes in life things change and are out of your control. On this day a year ago today seemed so far and I was flat out scared. How will I pay my portion of the rent? How will I pay my car note? Oh no, school’s coming and I need books, OMG what about health insurance? These were just some of the thoughts that raced through my mind, only pausing for a slew of water works (no Kleenex in sight might I add).
What I didn’t know is that I was about to embark on the biggest self-awareness journey in my life thus far. I didn’t know that I would fall into a deep depression, forced to learn money management all over again, gain a ton of weight or that I would hit “rock bottom”. All of that sounds horrible and believe me it was but I also didn’t see the light ahead, the blossoming relationship with God or the power of manifestation and sage.
It took about four months post separation date for me to come to grips with my new life, I was wearing sweat pants all day and scrolling on social media watching everyone live their best lives. Boom here comes jealously, I was even envious when I would see my mom and brother leave out for work. It was the worst feeling, I had no idea how I would come out on top and deep in the back of my mind I knew I couldn’t do it by myself.
I hit rock bottom. I have an open letter that I’ll share in December 2018. Long story short, I began praying again on a consistent basis and purchased some sage. At this point I had no idea how fast my life was about to change.
I dusted my shoulders off and turned my light back on. I began to wear real pants, got my hair and nails done, opened a new tab on my laptop that wasn’t school related and decided to look for a job (AGAIN). In previous months every time I would start my job search a giant flame of anger would ignite inside of me and I would get mad at my situation all over again. The night before I started my job hunt (seriously this time) I took a twirl in the world of manifestation. Below you’ll find my intention list of all the things I wanted to manifest in my near future life.
On February 6, 2018 I applied to iCIMS the company’s whose billboard on the parkway that had planted a seed in the back of my mind. I began to read reviews on Glassdoor about the company and thought “no way am I ever going to be able to work for such a cool company”. Just like that I had given up hope and went back to the drawing board.
February 9, 2018 – I received a call from an iCIMS Recruiter to set a phone interview date
February 13, 2018 – phone interview with 2 hiring managers
February 16, 2018 – 2nd phone interview with 1 hiring manager
February 20, 2018 – The day I found out confirmation of an onsite interview
February 23, 2018 – Day of onsite interview
February 28, 2018 – My recruiter called me to say I was offered the position. I cried in her ear and then for the rest of the day, then signed my offer letter. (Hi Jen!)
March 2018 & Beyond
I haven’t let up, I made a promise to myself to never get as low as I was and to only go after what truly makes me happy. Granted every day hasn’t been peaches but I’m learning to see the good in everything and every experience.
It is truly mind blowing of how things can change and how God just steps right in the nick of time. If I could go back and tell myself anything a year ago it would be “Heyyyyy Ny, welcome to the first day of the rest of your life. You’re going to love it. Smile”