A Very Grateful Thanksgiving

I am going to try my best not to cry while writing this blog post, I know for sure I’ll tear up though. All day yesterday I was engulfed with emotion, this time of year is extremely reflective for me and I just feel so overwhelmed with joy. The last few years of my life, mostly since graduating from high school (2012) have been super hard. This was the first time I felt like it was my turn to have a great year - I finally gained more than I lost and this feeling is indescribable.

In 2019 I managed to graduated from Pace University, buy a new car, get promoted and obtain my first apartment. I worked so hard for all of it and I’m forever thankful for the blessings God allowed me to receive even when I feel like I am least deserving. I know for sure that I wouldn’t have any of these things with God or the supporting people in my life. I want to take this time to publicly show my affection to some of the closest people dear to my heart. Here’s my open letter to each of you…

Dear Mommy,

My girl. My number one and right hand - you’ve had quite the year. Although things didn’t pan out the way you wanted your perseverance is absolutely stellar. To the strongest woman I know thank you for not giving up when you wanted to, thank you for believing in yourself and most of all thank you for picking yourself up and dusting off failure. You were my very first role model and even though I’m older I’ll never stop looking to you for everything. I love you to life.

Dear Daddy,

The way you believe in my dreams is crazy! I remember when I first told you about this very blog you were so curious lol now that we are approaching the biggest endeavor I’ve gotten myself into yet. You assure me every day that I’ll be okay, your exact words are “Niajah stop stressing everything’s going to be okay I got you” and somehow the same words work every day to calm my nerves and my mind that races 10,000 mph a minute lol. I can’t wait to make you proud and so thankful to have you as my daddy. I love you forever.

Dear Booda,

1st of all my heart is exploding, and you might be looking at me as I write this thinking I’m weird for crying on a the coach while Toy Story is playing. Lincoln, you’ve had one heck of a year; if you take anything out of 2019 I would want you to know that rejection is actually “new direction”. You are so young and your life is just getting started. The world is yours and God is still in control, let him do his thing lol. But seriously our relationship means so much me. I try really hard to be a great big sister and role model for you. You are my world. I love you so much booda bear.

Dear Ashley,

Is it October 20, 2019 because at this point I can’t stop crying. Before I moved to Piscataway I prayed to God that he would send me a friend. At that time in my life I was very lonely and I was blessed with you. I know for certain if I don't know anything else that 2020 has amazing things in store for you. I can’t wait to sit row center for it all. You mean so much to me I swear, if all my friendships dissolved over night and you remained I wouldn’t have lost a thing. I love you a million trips around the sun and back.

Dear Mrs. Scott,

You really got married this year, that’s insane! Deakeia, we’ve spent countless hours in your room, on the phone, at dinner, car rides you name it. I cherish every single one of our conversations so much. I care about your well being as if it was my own and I’m thankful for you and truly wish nothing but love, success and health as you enter 2020 with your new family. I’ll always be right here, forever ever. Loving you always, your pumkin.

Dear Cindy,

Cindy Cindy Cindy, I’ve never met someone so full of life someone who teaches me everyday that you can have it all. Educated business woman, wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, WOMAN. I love how you don’t lose yourself in all your titles. I aspire to be the career woman you are, It’s incredible rare to have a manager that you deep down inside know has your best interest at heart. Your guidance means the world to me, I take heed to your instruction without a blink of an eye. Even though you aren’t a hugger I am virtually hugging you so tight right now. My heart is full of appreciation for you, thank you for seeing the real me and letting her shine. I love you, you’re never getting rid of me. Emily is my little baby sister. The end.

Dear Victoria,

I saved you for last partly because I knew that I would have so many tears. Here goes nothing…

I believe it was incredibly strategic on the way we met, when I was driving to Harlem I felt like I was on a mission and I had no idea what that mission would entail but something on the inside of me told me that I had to be there. Turns out meeting you was the mission. I am incredibly grateful to have a woman like you in my life. You exemplify poise, professionalism, partnership and an aura of genuine energy. Over this past year I’ve felt myself grow under your direction and projects and I am so so thankful. You’ve never know that that first project meant to me back when I was unemployed. You made me feel like I wasn’t invisible when I was in a really dark place. I’ll always want to make you proud, always be your girl to girl and I promise to stay in New Jersey haha. My life wouldn’t be the same without you. I love you endlessly.

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Okay, guys I can’t cry anymore I’m tapped out. I love all my family and friends I am nothing without you guys. Please hold on tight to all of your love ones this holiday season, to all my readers I am wishing you a wonderful day filled with family and food!

Courtney, Richie, Briah, Tyler and Charles I love yall so so so much you’ll see yourselves in an individualized post soon <3